Addiction Rehab

I found it helpful, in terms of skills and tools, learning that I could bond with people who have been through addiction and gain wisdom from them. Rehab was a positive time in my life. I learned a lot! It did not keep me sober, because ultimately sobriety is a personal commitment. But even if you relapse, don’t let that make you forget the things you learned! What you learned will still help you.

I think the main point of rehab is to clear your mind of drugs/alcohol enough to let your brain get clear enough to learn a thing or two.

For the Love of Animals

I have grieved deeply the loss of pets; some that were with me for years and some that were with me for just a short time. My addled old brain is filled with cats (and a few dogs here and there) I’ve lost due to various causes. I get a twinge in my heart when I think of particular one. My grief is about the loss I feel when they are gone from me; it is also about them as living souls and beings whose lives may have lived out the normal lifespan and those whose lives were cut short. I think pets represent the best of humanity, the perfect souls, the blissful joy of being with them.

I vaguely remember an aphorism that goes something like this: “don’t trust someone who’s not an animal lover.” How true this is for me! You may hate people (totally understandable and totally justified!!) but hate animals? What’s up with that? What have they ever done to you?

And an aside for those who love animals but are allergic to them, I can accept loving and caring for nature in general.
For example, having a garden, growing plants, planting trees, cultivating flowers, caring for the environment in which plants, insects, and animals can thrive.

I am a cat lover and have always had a cat or four in my life. Right now, as I type this post I have one cat “murrowing” i.e. “pet me now or I will die immediately” and another cat sharing my computer desk chair taking a nap. Blissful for me.

No Longer in Austin

I’m now residing in the art community of Kerrville, Texas! I’ve been here since October, 2017. (Sorry for the late update here). But I have become enmeshed in the local art community and the local Unitarian Universalist (UU) spiritual community. I am so grateful for both communities, for they sustain my soul. They give me connection and roots.

I ache for the spiritual community! I need the connection that only comes from touching at the heart level with others!

I need the smaller pond, I guess. Austin is a LARGE POND. Isn’t it? Too large really, for someone like me. Though what’s funny to me is that any time someone says to me, “You’re kind of a weird person” I can say, “I’m from Austin” and that seems to explain everything!!!!! How funny!!! 🙂

Simple Gifts a Shaker Song

Simple Gifts a Shaker Song.
This seems like such a “simple” lyric or song that it might be overlooked as being deep — but we all know that depth often disguises itself as simplicity — and certainly we overlook the gifts that simply, ordinary, easy things give us. The original song was classified as a Shaker dance song. We also often forget the importance that simple, easy, communal dance. I.e. MOVEMENT TOGETHER. For a few days, I am reminded that the opposite of “addiction” is connection. Please, if you are so motivated, look up more about the lyrics and the song.

‘Tis the gift to be simple, ’tis the gift to be free

‘Tis the gift to come down where we ought to be,

And when we find ourselves in the place just right,

‘Twill be in the valley of love and delight.

When true simplicity is gained,

To bow and to bend we shan’t be ashamed,

To turn, turn will be our delight,

Till by turning, turning we come ’round right

I feel that we are disconnected and that we forget this need to be a community embraced with each other.  We spread ourselves thin  – we move across country – we no longer live next to our families.

I believe we forget each other.  We no longer touch each other and as a result experience skin hunger.  I distinctly remember having skin hunger when I was a child and teenager.  When someone accidentally brushed against me or touched my hair, I experienced a desperate high and need and wanted that touch again.

We forget this togetherness. The dances of the community are simple maybe,  but the depth of community is often lost in our digital age. We do not connect deeply any more, do we? I know I don’t and my life is bereft and lonely because of it.

My dear, love is the order of the day.

When I am next to you, my friend, we spread our hands together

and experience the skin of each other.

When my friend is beside me, I am completely unified with the spirit

and how can I not but be ecstatic?

Beloved, be with me, be with me, never let me travel away from you,

let me stay with your soul and know your being.

Love, after all, is the order of the day, and the nature of the universe.


Clay Bodies by Dylan Karges

Is it just me or is this reminiscent of the cache of Chinese ceramic soldiers — the Terracotta Army — ???

“Clay Bodies” by Dylan Karges

I found that I was very emotionally moved by the pictures and images of all the bodies — similar and yet eerily dissimilar — all grouped together according to color, height and flow. The installation has a very otherworldly quality to it. I wish I had seen it in person. I think it’s extremely inspirational.

What I find really interesting is: “Early figures were fired with bubbles deliberately left in the clay; this caused them to blow up in the kiln. The fragments were then painstakingly glued back together for exhibition.” Wow. What a wonderful concept, extremely original. Wondering if I should do something similar.

I Believe

Elbert Hubbard 1856 – 1915

I believe that the best way to prepare for a future life
is to be kind, live one day at a time,
and do the work you can do best, doing it as well as you can.

I believe we should remember the week-day, to keep it holy.
I believe that sin is misdirected energy.
I believe that there is no devil but Fear.
I believe that no one can harm you but yourself.

I believe in my own divinity – and yours.
I believe that we are all sons of God,
and that it doth not yet appear what we shall be.
I believe that the only way we can reach the Kingdom of Heaven
is to have the Kingdom of Heaven in our hearts.

I believe in every man minding his own business,
because I believe in freedom –
social, economic, domestic, political, mental, spiritual.

I believe in sunshine, fresh air, friendship,
calm sleep, beautiful thoughts,
because it is what we think and do that makes us what we are.

I believe in the paradox of success through failure,
that death is a manifestation of life
and that the universe was planned for good.

You are Stronger than You Think….

Read these questions that you can ask yourself when you are at wit’s end, nothing seems right, you feel ugly and fat, and you think your life just in general SUCKS. Well — these questions are good reminders of what you might be doing or not doing that could be causing you to fee this way, plus also some questions are just to help you gain perspective.

“You’ve made it this far. You are stronger than you think.” — from the article

Our feelings of inadequacy are more in our control than we think. There things you can do grab  your life by the reigns. Why we might be feeling bad might be as simple as not being hydrated enough or a lack of sleep or poor nutrition.  Once you have taken control of the things that you CAN control — then go seek help for the things you CAN’T control!