Addiction Rehab

I found it helpful, in terms of skills and tools, learning that I could bond with people who have been through addiction and gain wisdom from them. Rehab was a positive time in my life. I learned a lot! It did not keep me sober, because ultimately sobriety is a personal commitment. But even if you relapse, don’t let that make you forget the things you learned! What you learned will still help you.

I think the main point of rehab is to clear your mind of drugs/alcohol enough to let your brain get clear enough to learn a thing or two.

For the Love of Animals

I have grieved deeply the loss of pets; some that were with me for years and some that were with me for just a short time. My addled old brain is filled with cats (and a few dogs here and there) I’ve lost due to various causes. I get a twinge in my heart when I think of particular one. My grief is about the loss I feel when they are gone from me; it is also about them as living souls and beings whose lives may have lived out the normal lifespan and those whose lives were cut short. I think pets represent the best of humanity, the perfect souls, the blissful joy of being with them.

I vaguely remember an aphorism that goes something like this: “don’t trust someone who’s not an animal lover.” How true this is for me! You may hate people (totally understandable and totally justified!!) but hate animals? What’s up with that? What have they ever done to you?

And an aside for those who love animals but are allergic to them, I can accept loving and caring for nature in general.
For example, having a garden, growing plants, planting trees, cultivating flowers, caring for the environment in which plants, insects, and animals can thrive.

I am a cat lover and have always had a cat or four in my life. Right now, as I type this post I have one cat “murrowing” i.e. “pet me now or I will die immediately” and another cat sharing my computer desk chair taking a nap. Blissful for me.

Moving

Every frustration and difficulty
has the opportunity
to form you
in the deepest places
of your heart.

A good reminder for me as I move into my new home this weekend.  It’s been hitch-free so far (knock on wood), but stress has really done a number on me for the last month.  In the space of a month, I bought a house and moved into it.  I arranged for new floors to be put in and a new paint job.  Coordinating all of this was a major effort on my part!  I’m not great at multi-tasking or making a series of rapid decisions — things I’ve been having to do for the past month.  Then comes the additional stress of unpacking!  I don’t know which is worse — packing or unpacking! And then there’s just the stress of living in boxes during that time.

No Longer in Austin

I’m now residing in the art community of Kerrville, Texas! I’ve been here since October, 2017. (Sorry for the late update here). But I have become enmeshed in the local art community and the local Unitarian Universalist (UU) spiritual community. I am so grateful for both communities, for they sustain my soul. They give me connection and roots.

I ache for the spiritual community! I need the connection that only comes from touching at the heart level with others!

I need the smaller pond, I guess. Austin is a LARGE POND. Isn’t it? Too large really, for someone like me. Though what’s funny to me is that any time someone says to me, “You’re kind of a weird person” I can say, “I’m from Austin” and that seems to explain everything!!!!! How funny!!! 🙂

Wooing the Ones I Love

I woo the ones I love.
I hope you know who you are.
If you doubt,
why yes
I am wooing you!
I woo the friends, the independents,
the lovers and the activists.
I’ll chase you down ’til you cannot run anymore,
After all, there’s no escaping the true love
of like-minded souls!
This is the loving I send to you
the kindness I give to you
the compassion I share with you..
You know who you are!
If you doubt, doubt no longer!

(c) 2017 Frances Osborne

Having a Gentle, Truthful Voice

A few years ago, a FB friend said that I had “a gentle voice.” So I was thinking about that. I hope my voice is always honest and gentle. Kind and truthful. Caring and forthcoming. To have both in your voice is a talent and a gift to be practiced constantly. People desperately want the truth and don’t get enough of it — but they also deeply fear harshness and criticism. So: Speak the truth, say your heart, but let love be your guide in words.

Simple Gifts a Shaker Song

Simple Gifts a Shaker Song.
This seems like such a “simple” lyric or song that it might be overlooked as being deep — but we all know that depth often disguises itself as simplicity — and certainly we overlook the gifts that simply, ordinary, easy things give us. The original song was classified as a Shaker dance song. We also often forget the importance that simple, easy, communal dance. I.e. MOVEMENT TOGETHER. For a few days, I am reminded that the opposite of “addiction” is connection. Please, if you are so motivated, look up more about the lyrics and the song.

‘Tis the gift to be simple, ’tis the gift to be free

‘Tis the gift to come down where we ought to be,

And when we find ourselves in the place just right,

‘Twill be in the valley of love and delight.

When true simplicity is gained,

To bow and to bend we shan’t be ashamed,

To turn, turn will be our delight,

Till by turning, turning we come ’round right


I feel that we are disconnected and that we forget this need to be a community embraced with each other.  We spread ourselves thin  – we move across country – we no longer live next to our families.

I believe we forget each other.  We no longer touch each other and as a result experience skin hunger.  I distinctly remember having skin hunger when I was a child and teenager.  When someone accidentally brushed against me or touched my hair, I experienced a desperate high and need and wanted that touch again.

We forget this togetherness. The dances of the community are simple maybe,  but the depth of community is often lost in our digital age. We do not connect deeply any more, do we? I know I don’t and my life is bereft and lonely because of it.

My dear, love is the order of the day.

When I am next to you, my friend, we spread our hands together

and experience the skin of each other.

When my friend is beside me, I am completely unified with the spirit

and how can I not but be ecstatic?

Beloved, be with me, be with me, never let me travel away from you,

let me stay with your soul and know your being.

Love, after all, is the order of the day, and the nature of the universe.

 

A Fistful of Yearning

I am clutching a fistful of yearning.
When I meet someone also clutching a fistful of yearning,
Let us open our hands and share this fistful with each other.
Our yearnings are no doubt the same or similar.
Our fists hold the same amount.
Do we open our hands and share?
Or do we close our hands tight and keep to ourselves?
But the size of our fists is the same as the size of hearts.
We could share, we could dare to share:
Which may be the hardest thing of all.
Who will share with me? Who will accept my sharing?

(c) 09-16-16 Frances Ann Osborne

Sending Love to the Universe

Okay weird thought of the day: I give all my love to the Universe and all of its inhabitants everywhere. When you give this kind of love, the Universe hears you back and reflects this same love back to you. Have a sensitive ear to the ways the Universe is hearing you and sending back. Sometimes there is a bit of detective work involved! Hahahaha! Seriously! You have to notice the little ways that the Universe hears your desires and responds to them.

Being A Judgement Free Zone

I don’t share memes very often because I think that there are too many memes posted on FB. But I’m posting this one. Yesterday a group of friends and I were talking about judgement. It was specifically said “We don’t judge you. No one judges you.” I like a judgement free zone, because I would not want to be judged for my frequent failings (I’m hard enough as it is on my own failings) so I do not want to judge others.

Often our first impulse is to judge. That’s natural, it’s normal! But if you can catch yourself doing that, or if someone points out that you’re doing it, and you work on it, more power to you.

In my mind, one of the most generous things you can give a person is a safe place to be vulnerable. To be a calm, quiet, accepting, loving presence. It can be hard to do or easy to do, depending on whom you are with. It’s easy to do if you like and love the person. It’s difficult to do when you don’t like the person or are uncomfortable with the person.

Be a judgement free zone: Try it, you’ll like it!